Yoga pose XVIII final - Back to the image maker...having lost the painter!

Each time there's a struggle, I feel I'm not painting anymore...

... the priority, suddenly, becomes the image, as opposed to just making brush marks, using the image merely as a trigger. In the illustrator's turf, I feel diminished, reduced to my simplest expression, yet I persist... in an attempt to learn something... hopefully!

Note to self: "Abstract painting invariably implies a series of constructions and deconstructions... I'm not used to that... but it may be a necessary evil, if I am to survive in art!"